By Actress/Singer Maria Howell
‘TRYIN’ TO TELL YOU SOMETHING”
According to Webster’s Dictionary, “Alignment” means…the act of aligning or state of being aligned; especially: the proper positioning or state of adjustment of parts. In turn, align means…to arrange things, so that they form a line or are in proper position: to change (something) so that it agrees with or matches some- thing else.
There’s something positive to be said about things being aligned, whether it’s your car, your spine…or your soul. A car hits bumps in the road, that cause it to work improperly and have a rough ride. Likewise, we can sometimes take our bodies through over exertion, be it exercise or injury. But when our emotions experience tough times, we can become “pressed”…depressed, suppressed, oppressed, or repressed…take your pick. Any one of the “presses” causes our souls to get out of alignment. Possibly making “not so smart” choices and decisions, which lead to more stress down the road.
One of my personal experiences was, after several relationships with men who weren’t in the same career field, I decided I’d try something different and be with someone who’d appreciate and understand me and my world, without having to “catch them up” or “explain”, how it all worked. The big- gest problem with this was…I wasn’t aligned with my spirit. He was nice, smart, even handsome…but…and this is a big BUT…again I say, I wasn’t aligned. It wasn’t his fault, it was mine, for not listening to my spirit. Lord knows, he gave me enough clues, but I didn’t listen. Looking back, I can see many of the bumps in the road that caused the rough ride. My stress level even made my body feel over exerted. Actions speak loud, but words speak louder to me. Being a singer and actor, words mean something very special to me, especially how you express those words. It’s just how I’m built. I heard many words from him, but after a certain point, they were aimed at me personally…telling me what was wrong with me, and falsely accusing me. Not only did the words take root, but so did confusion. (Note: Not of God). They were uncomfortable, hurt deeply, and my soul got further out of line. Today, I spend lots of time, re-aligning with my spirit… putting in the work of “repairing” and “reprogramming” negative wiring. There’s a difference between “chemistry” and “love”. Just tryin’ to tell you something…
Written by contributing writer – Maria Howell (Choir Soloist in the movie version of “The Color Purple) www.mariahowell.com
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